Just read his confession
“… I’ve done something I’m not proud of and can probably never live down. But I know from past experience that being honest is the first step in any recovery. So, in the interest of being honest, so that maybe one day some people will forgive me for deceiving tme, betraying them, even – I’ve decided to show everyone who I can be when I get like this and what I am actually capable of when I get lost like I have the past few months.”
Go, read.